affection, archaic

I’m fighting with everyone. My close relationships feel like they’re falling apart. I know it’s mostly my fault. My behaviour and mood is definitely taking a toll on the those who have to deal with them. I was scolded for not being able to handle pressure. I was yelled at for causing unnecessary worry by being rash and cold. And just last night, I was expressed disappointment by not knowing better. It hurts. I felt like I was at my lowest point but I’m still getting drag below. I know they care and trying their hardest to be patient with me. I’m trying to be patient too.

I’m sorry.

I had three hours of sleep. I don’t feel particularly tired but I know my body needs more rest. I’ve had severe lack of sleep these last couple of days and my skin is in horrible condition. My appetite is getting worse.

When is this all going to pass? When can we be happy again?