I’m writing from VAN. Facebook reminded me of a video that I had taken around the same time of year, last year. It’s of a mink struggling to pull a crab (or dinner, I presume) through a hole in a concrete barrier which was blocking its way into the forest. It didn’t seem capable of understanding that the hole wasn’t big enough but it tried over and over again without rest. It was definitely one of the most amazing things I’ve seen in my life. I was lucky to see that during a run around the sea wall. On that same run, I spooked a seagull, causing it to drop a starfish it was intending to eat. I managed to steal the starfish for a moment and when I let it have it back, I watched it swallow it whole. Man, what a terrifying sight. Animals and food and instincts, I suppose.
Everyone keeps telling me the same thing here: I came just at the right time for beautiful weather. Apparently there had just been a heatwave that lasted for a bit. It makes me desperately want to run again. It’s been a couple of weeks since. Been too busy dealing with with work and lack of sleep but I’m hoping for some mood and energy for the coming week. Here’s hoping especially cause this week has been extremely rough on me. I’ve been feeling lonely and defeated but friends have been kind, still. I’m fortunate. And though things are piling up and have been upsetting me, days are better, certainly. Been drinking a little too much again but it’s been helping me get some things off my chest.
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Watery eyes and three unsettling words.
too
kia
su.
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