It’s been a while, hasn’t it?
I’m great. It feels a little strange to say that on a rainy day. My body’s back in order and feeling healthy. I’d been out of commission for a couple of months since I busted up my ankle so it feels super good to be running again. I still managed to place first in category for a fun-run last week so I’m pretty proud about that. Maybe I’ve gotta set myself a serious race goal now.
Fitness aside, I’m extremely happy with the way things are. I have friends and family supporting me and I have full confidence that they’ll have my back even if they may be miles away. The rapport feels real. I had once been so concerned about ‘maintenance’ amongst my relationships but now I realize the strongest bonds don’t require any such thing. Of course, I want to offer as much of my time as I can but it’s comforting to finally understand that. The transactional-type relationships will filter out on their own and that’s fine. I’m sorry we couldn’t come to an agreement but life must go on.
I find that there aren’t enough hours in the day anymore. There are too many things I want to do and learn. Day after day, I look at the clock and pretty soon it’s already past my bedtime. But that’s okay. It’s what makes our time so valuable. I’m just more excited than ever to learn about the world and the people around me. I wish I could do it forever. To learn is such a thing of value and many of us take it for granted. I’d argue that in some cases, it’s even more valuable than life itself.
If I was given the gift of time, my boy deserves all of it. He loves me and he makes me feel it every living second. He makes me feel home more than anything else in the world. I need him.
And it feels good to know he needs me.